Today seems to be a “wedding”-themed day, not that I am by any stretch of the imagination close to having a wedding day of my own. First, there was a discussion about weddings and wedding dresses this morning, which gave me the brilliant idea to look on eBay for when my time comes. I’m not one of those women who get excited over wedding dresses, and I am not willing to spend painful amounts of money for a dress that I’m only going to wear for a few hours. Besides, I’d get a kick out of telling people I got my dress for $100 or less on eBay, and it would be this fancy, elaborate lace and chiffon and whathaveyou creation that would normally sell for upwards of $1000. And then this old lady I was helping out with the milk container when I was getting coffee this afternoon saw my aquamarine ring that I wear on my middle finger, and mistaking it for the engagement finger, promptly asked me, “Are you recently engaged?” to which I replied, “No…wrong finger…sorry!” And then, whilst perusing my favorite blogs, I came across this (also see picture below if you didn’t click on the link):
Anyway, as for the three “signs” related to weddings, I think it’s just one of those days. I was talking to a friend tonight and he told me that these things happen when you’re busy focusing on something else. Not that I was focused on weddings today, but you can’t help but get it in your head when outside sources trigger thoughts of it — and not the subtle hints either. Just blatant, literal reminders. I was just thinking how things come in good time if you only listen to your instinct, and let things unravel on their own. Eventually you find yourself able to ask the questions you normally would dread finding out the answers to, except now the fear of what the answer might be is gone because you realize it’s alright. You’re not losing anything because you don’t necessarily feel like you have anything to lose — i.e, you’re not trying to gain anything. Part of it is because you’re finally admitting to yourself what it is you really want, even though what you really want is the near-impossible. And sometimes, things have a good reason for being “near-impossible.” But life, as they say, is unpredictable.
In the meantime, there is the predictability of what I will get if I put in this much flour, that much butter, this many eggs and bake at 350.